Today the Lord spoke to me through this blog post titled "Come to Me all Who are Weary" written by Vanessa.
For me, reading Vanessa's words were like hearing Jesus speak right to my heart. He's telling me to forgive myself because he forgives me, because he loves me with an everlasting love. Even now I can feel those words pierce love into my heart that I can't shut out, nor do I wish to. It's that love of Jesus that I have been missing lately. Yet, here in the midst of My Wilderness, Jesus meets me and leads me by the hand back onto the path. Even when I am unaware that I've wandered off, he has found me and brought me home.
The part of Vanessa's post that hit me the most was this...
"But once she has nothing, I’ll be able to get through to her. “I’ll entice her and lead her out into the wilderness where we can be alone, and I’ll speak right to her heart and try to win her back.” (Hosea 2:14)
What will it take for you, dear friend, to stop running from God -to stop looking at your relationship with Him as a chore, something to mark off your to-do list? Laying down your desires at the feet of Jesus may seem impossible, but when you trust Jesus with what you want in your life, you will be pleasantly surprised. Jesus wants to provide, heal, and love you. You may want a lot of things but there is nothing that beats the love of your Savior. Take it from me."
I feel like God brought me to nothing in a way. I'm here at graduate school, far away from my closest friends, yet not living with my parents. I guess that's my nothing, not having these people around me everyday. Yet it's here that God chose to speak right to my heart. It's in this place that God has been able to mold me.
It's true what they say. When God is all you have, you realize he's all you need.
I have a feeling that I'm not the only one who needs to hear these words, who needs to surrender to Jesus tonight and give into his love.
Dear sister, if that's you, it's time to forgive yourself.
So go ahead, give into God's love, and let go.