You know what I've realized? I've realized that I've been giving God deadlines to meet in regards to certain milestones in my life. I dreamed of when I would have a boyfriend, get married, have a classroom of my own, and have children in my house. And the list goes on and on.
But you know what? None of my plans came or have come to fruition according to my timing and deadlines. And you know why? Because they were all my plans and my deadlines. And not God's. The reason why my dreams haven't come true isn't because God's not listening to me or doesn't want me to be happy. Because He does care for me, He does want me to be happy, and He does listen to me. He hears every single one of my struggles and hopes and prayers. He knows I have dreams and He knows what I want.
But He knows His plans and dreams for me. And while I don't see it yet, they're much bigger and better than any I could ever come up with. And while I know this is true, it's a struggle to accept it and live it out. I may be in love with God's perfect timing, but it's still hard for me to accept that I can't always decide when that timing will take place.
This past week I've also learned that waiting never ends. In fact, I believe it's something we all deal with. Whether it be relationships, careers, marriage, children, or school. Waiting is constant in our life. And while it is constant, it's a wonderful reminder that God is in control. That God is patient with us. That God wants us to draw closer to Him. And that I can take tremendous comfort in. Trusting is hard, but I'm here to tell you it's worth the wait. And if you're in a waiting season like I am, know that we're at least in it together. And God's always there, too.