As I begin to write this post, I am sitting here praying that God will guide me in the way that I should go. In December I will be done with graduate school and I must say, I am scared but excited at the same time. Scared for what may come next and of the unknown. But also excited for whatever God has for me next and whatever job he leads me towards. In the midst of applying for jobs, looking for jobs, etc. A few weeks ago my roommate who is not only my roommate but my friend, has gotten a job somewhere else and will be moving out in January. I must say that when I found out, I was a little disappointed, sad, and frustrated that my circumstances were not what I wanted them to be, I found myself doubting that God has better plans for me than what I have for myself, and that he will work everything out. As I was in the middle of feeling let down, a friend reminded me that God has something better planned. Even though it may be difficult to see at the moment. I know this is true and yet sometimes I still doubt.
As i think about this, I am reminded of some words from a familiar worship song, "Prone to wonder, Lord I feel it, Prone to leave the God I love. Here's my heart Lord , take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above" These words are a reminder that even in those times of wandering and doubting, God is always there to take our hand and meet us right in the middle of the mess. He is there to meet us in our doubting, in our wandering, and in our pain. He never let's us go.
Isaiah 40: 28 says, " Have you never heard? have you ever understood? The Lord is the everlasting God, the creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding. He gives power to the week and strength to the powerless. Even youths become weak and tired, and young men will in exhaustion. But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. " These words are a reminder that even when we feel let down, defeated, or feel like we are wandering off on our own. God is right there, even in our wandering, in all our circumstances. So sisters, if today you are feeling discouraged by your circumstances, or feeling as though you are wandering off without any guidance. Remember this: That God always meets us in our wandering, our discouragement, and in all circumstances. So join me in singing, "Here's my heart Lord take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above..."